Goo's Journal

5:46PM - Blah

At my shop.. Thinking about the past, things that happened, things I wish I did different and stuff I need to do now.. I'm so bored in this "new life", really I am..

2:23PM - I need of help

You know I'm in desperate need of help.. I posted a bulletin on myspace a few times but didnt get a response becuase they keep getting pushed off the screen because so many other bulletins are getting posted.. Basically I lost my apt months ago and have been staying at motels everynight up until 2 weeks ago, now banned from motels cuz I brok the glass door at one because he didnt give me my $5 deposit! Basically I've been sleeping in the car with my fiance and were in desperate need of somewhere to stay for a few weeks or a bit longer so we can get money together for a new place, we really need the help, if anyone knows anything, please let me know by email "angerstate@Hotmail.com", I'm also on myspace at myspace.com/industrialsoldier.. If u can help, you'll be saving our lives, literally, wont that feel good?!? You can also call our cell phone, 215-200-5623 if u can do something or know of a job looking for people..

1:48PM - Blah

Stressed.. Got me a new lady, real good to me, stressin about this financial situation, I need my own place, again. But this shit is taking too long... I need big bucks now, I cant be patient.. I also need a damn synthesist... Other than that, things are cool.. Happy as shit, currently at work.. Yup, time, please go a bit quicker!

Current mood: artistic

6:25PM - SYNTHESIST NEEDED FOR INDUSTRIAL BAND (ANGERSTATE)

ANGERSTATE is currently experiencing some not so cool shit.. So for those of you out there waiting to hear "our" new shit, well, unfortunately it's probably not going to happen for a bit unless I get some help..and fast.</p>

Unfortunately things are not going very well amongst Catalyst and I.. Things don't seem to be making too much sense as to why EVERYDAY there seems to be some kind of problem on Catalyst's part preventing us from getting together and working on our music.. Everyday there seems to be some kind of problem, and it seems kind of "shady" if you ask me.. Obviously Catalyst isn't dedicated to the music we've produced or are working on, and is not making any effort AT ALL too succeed in our music.. So unfortunately, I must move on..

Basically what I need from our fans is some feedback on any information on a synthesist.. As you may know, "we" are industrial..

So Basically I need someone who is:</b>

DEDICATED

EAGER TO SUCCEED (in the music industry)

VERY CREATIVE(being able to come up with unique music, and willing to work with me as far as to what I feel we need in sound)

FLEXIBLE(In practicing hours, able to make time for practices a few times per week)

SIMPLY A GOOD PERSON (Not just someone to make music with, but to be a loyal friend)--after all, we're going to be together as far as practicing, traveling for gigs, or possibly tours, so shit, we need to have fun, and fuckin, damnit, just be alright haha..

MUST HAVE YOUR OWN EQUIPMENT (Hopefully mixer, PC, recording equipment or software on the PC as well as required PC Hardware, PAs, things of that nature.. So if we have a gig coming up, we have our shit together to bring for the event basically)

G E N D E R:As far as sex, you can be male or female, just as long as you qualify for what I am looking for.. I'm not a fucking drill Seargant, just someone to loves music, who feels music flows through his veins better than any drug could ever do.. All you have to do is know your shit, love the music, and be willing to commit yourself..

O U R S O U N D: Our influences were Wumpscut, LaetherStrip, Bile, Suicide Commando, Nine Inch Nails, FunkerVogt.. Our music can be very vengeful, very sexual, in a way "educational" or simply "hot"..

C O N T A C T: As far as contact, you can send me an email at "ANGERSTATE@HOTMAIL.COM" and I will get back to you as soon as I possibly can, just be patient incase I have a lot of emails coming in.. Thank you my loyal fuckin fans! Hopefully I get back to work with my shitty music to entertain ourselves.. Much love my love sluts!

1:03PM - beat

just got back from downtown.. bout to go to work.. But yeah, good shit happening, Angerstate, an industrial thing I had going is now back together! Muhahaha, we've just regained contact, bought new equipment, and shits lookin good! You can find a couple things on our temporary site "www.angelfire.com/droid/angerstate".. I haven't done much to it because we're going to be getting our own domain soon, obviously, if available, www.angerstate.com.. actually I'm gonna find out now.. Yup, gotta go work and practice afterwards!

Current mood: accomplished

Current music: FrontLine Assembly

1:48PM - nothing..

nothing new.. fuckin workin, gonna see p/o tomorrow, getting a car and all that sweet shit, thank god i have nobody holding me back trying to make me spend my money on HEROIN, feels good.. wish someone "SPECIAL" would try and change things for herself too instead of lying about what shes doing and where shes been.. stop saying what people would like to hear about u, all the positive off drug shit.. tell the truth for once, maybe someone could help u if its KNOWN u have a problem.. I love you.

1:18PM - blah

Nothing really happening.. Just working every single day and shit, hell yeah.. Also a case against me has been dropped, fuckin yay me! All I've got is this probation to do and then im ko0! But keeping busy and stuff keeping out of trouble is a damn good feeling. I always wanted my family and true friends, but i tried to wrong ways to get them.. I realized I needed to be a man and take care of what needed to be taken care of .. A lot of it resulted from me listening to people I always thought were wrong and judgemental, turned out I was the one wrong, and being judgemental.. All I had to do was look at it from outside the box, is if it were someone elses life.. ::sighs::.. Scheduled my GED tests, aquired my license, working full time, yeah, shits cool.. Now I just wish to set back and relax with a special someone.. A crib in May, or earlier, I want to share it with someone.. Alrighty, enuf about me.. Peace!

Current mood: accomplished

Current music: some jazz shit on XM Radio

1:18PM - blah

Nothing really happening.. Just working every single day and shit, hell yeah.. Also a case against me has been dropped, fuckin yay me! All I've got is this probation to do and then im ko0! But keeping busy and stuff keeping out of trouble is a damn good feeling. I always wanted my family and true friends, but i tried to wrong ways to get them.. I realized I needed to be a man and take care of what needed to be taken care of .. A lot of it resulted from me listening to people I always thought were wrong and judgemental, turned out I was the one wrong, and being judgemental.. All I had to do was look at it from outside the box, is if it were someone elses life.. ::sighs::.. Scheduled my GED tests, aquired my license, working full time, yeah, shits cool.. Now I just wish to set back and relax with a special someone.. A crib in May, or earlier, I want to share it with someone.. Alrighty, enuf about me.. Peace!

Current mood: accomplished

Current music: some jazz shit on XM Radio

12:32PM - yo

wakawakawaka.. yeah, working, being bzy.. mmmm, love.. grrr, its crazy, yummy, butterflies in my tummy, my mind is jello, so inlove...arg, gotta work...

10:15AM - crazy shit

I was just locked up for 3 months and got out today at 3am, sum shit eh?? Sure feels good to be the fuck out.. What did I miss peoplez?

Oh yeah, and I'm drug free, feels good to have my health back, but yeah time to go to work, peace!

Amanda what the fuck is going on u fuckin trouble maker?

-GoO

Current mood: accomplished

3:18PM - yeah

lifes beat..

3:23PM - nothing..

i miss you Amanda......


W <3 D
Love is Pain

Chillin in the library.. Life is beat, but a friend and I are gonna go feel niiiiiiiiiiiiiice ;) PEaCe PeOpLe

3:21PM - I've got issues..but we all knew..

Current mood: drained

Current music: Just the elevator music in my mind..

11:00AM - (From my real journal this morning)

August 11, 2003
5:31AM

(There was a paragraph before this, but I just wanted Amanda to know what's running through my mind as shes gone, again, this is from my real diary, W <3 D)


"But yeah man, I've got out a picture of Amanda & I and it kinda hurts man. We were so fucking meant for eachother until certain people corrupted her. I really miss her a lot, it's fucking hard to believe shes gone. I just hope atleast that she changes for the better and succeeds on having a great life accomplishing great things and being healthy."
"In a way honestly, it's kind of a relief,like,she wont be able to dick me around anymore ya' know? But at the same time I miss the way she always complimented me on my looks and what not, our interesting journeys, the goofy things we'd say to eachother, all the times we laughed, kissed, and held eachother throught the hottest, coldest, and most beautiful nights. Man, I would have given her the world and more, I just wish when she was here, she didn't do a lot of the things she did. I fucking love her to death and there is nothing more I wanted than to spend my life with Amanda supplying her with love, happiness, a home and whatever else."
"I wish she was here with me as I progress, wishing she did with me, drug free, worry free, and "shady" free."
"But yes, I'm gonna go now and try to catch an hour of sleep! Goodnight, morning Mr.Book and Amanda, sweet dreams, I love you! A+F"


Yeah all the above was from my real diary I like to call Mr.Book.. I love that fucking girl even though she might have been with quite a few people I knew, point is, this got the sloppy 2nds, 3rds, 4ths whatever, if they even managed to get that far.. Amanda was my baby for over 3 fuckin years.. \
The timing is fucking aweful on her fucking leaving dude.. I just started working the fucking clubs and shit, and work with my father is going good.. My friend and I are looking into an apartment in Upper Darby and stuff that we can afford and everything, so it looks like we might be doing that in a week or two.
Also, after my grandfather moves, or sadly passes, I'm moving into the apartment.. I don't care if I'm sharing a house with someone, apartment, whatever, I'm moving into that apartment so I have my own space. People get on my nerves after a while.. But yeah, I'm gonna go continue working now, talk to ya LaTeR



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Wrath misses Demon........................pain

Current mood: lonely

Current music: Wumpscut

10:53AM - fuckin people

Well it's 10:54AM and I'm at the library, nothing else to do so thought I'd stop by.. Ofcourse Amanda (once we become good friends/lovers) looks for an excuse to fuck me over. Why? I do not know, things have been cool.. but I guess Amanda will be Amanda.

Fucking this morning I got in a heated arguement with my father about him saying I do nothing but lay around the house.. How the fuck is that shit when I'm there like 10pm, go to bed and wake up and leave? Not even like 12 hours am I fucking there, what time is there to "lay around".. But it's whatever, fuck that store with my father, and fuck him. I'm gonna listen to my relatives, just work somewhere else, and say peace!

Well, soon I'm gonna start a job making $17.50/hr plus comission, also I will be recieving benefits and shit which is cool. I'm gonna be working with an internet provider promoting the service and doing other things.. It's pretty neat since I do speak perfect english and I don't use fucking "ebonics".. That definetly scores points with a business like that.

Yeah I'm gonna go head to the bathroom and maybe do some drugs real quick, then I'm gonna go pick up some loot.. Sucks for Amanda she aint around, I would have supported her like a nice guy.. Fuck, I keep nodding.. Yeah talk to ya later!

Current mood: high

Current music: no music, just the voices in my head..just them..

7:15PM

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7:09PM

Punk Goth


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7:03PM

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Bondage movie! You're into BSDM (Bondage &
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6:55PM

Still at this God Damn library, an hour and 4 minutes to kill blah..



Threat rating: Medium. Your total lack of decent
family values makes you dangerous, but we can
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if you become too high profile.


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6:50PM

Happy Deathday!
Your name:	wrathkraven
You will die on:	Friday, June 22, 2035
You will die of:	Didn't wait 30 minutes before swimming
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